Pump Head: It Happened to Me After My 4 bypass Heart Surgery

I want to write about this "pump head". This is what the heart surgeons call it. It happened to me after my 4 bypass heart surgery. As I sit here this morning quivering inside my body and my mind racing as it most always does I want to write more about this.

I have found that doctors and pharmacist have not heard about this. I am finding doctors and pharmacists are interested in what I am telling them about what I am going through after the heart surgery.

They tell me they are sorry I am going through this but they have no answers as what to do about it. It seems all who have had this happen to them (us) are just here with no answers yet we still face this daily. 

As a Christian I trust God with every heart beat. It has been and will be God that gets me through all this. Even if I have to go through the rest of my life living with this "pump head thing" I can and will trust God. As God knows the outcome of each of us we can turn to God asking his help.

God has told us to keep seeking, keep knocking and to keep asking. 

Right now my mind wants to go blank as I try to remember Scripture or to remember other things. This is part of the after heart surgery that we face. When I say we I mean all who face this after heart surgery. 

I am so compulsive it's hard to get through a day. Things I never went through are here and seem to worsen each day. I want to do things like clean house, go visit people, etc. But to be around most people . . .  I can not stand to be around them. Because they talk loud or they want to go on and on about things that do not matter. 

Its so hard to explain unless you are going through this. I want to tell people about this pump head but they look at me like I am crazy. This is because they have no clue what I am going through.

I am grateful that  I am not going through a disease like cancer. But this brain thing is over whelming as I do not know what to do from second to second.

At the end of every day I can thank God for getting me through this as I know I had nothing to do with my getting through each 24/7 day. I pray asking God`s help and it is God that sends me his help and I know it is God and prayers of other believers that help me.

I know another lady, Cathy, who faces this also. She has had many surgeries and she told me she knows she is going through this also. So its not just heart surgery that might cause this. Any time  your brain is damaged from after surgeries you will face this with your brain being damaged.

Pray for all people who are facing this brain thing that we can do nothing about.

If you had any surgery where you were under for hours you probably have a brain injury also. Trust God. He is our answer.

Praise you Jehovah Rophe the Lord that heals us.

Mary